"It's been a while but it's altogether familiar and bittersweet. While I know that from experience, this is only transient (to a large extent at least), I can't help but wonder... why am I being ravaged with such sweet desires, dreams and fantasies if I'm not meant to visualize them...Why then, do I have such visions if I'm not meant to realize them?" -excerpt from prayer journal.
"Let me give you a little inside information about God. God likes to watch. He's a prankster. Think about it. He gives man instincts. He gives you this extraordinary gift, and then what does He do, I swear for His own amusement, his own private, cosmic gag reel, He sets the rules in opposition. It's the goof of all time. Look but don't touch. Touch, but don't taste. Taste, don't swallow. Ahaha. And while you're jumpin' from one foot to the next, what is he doing? He's laughin' His sick, fuckin' ass off! He's a tight-ass! He's a SADIST! He's an absentee landlord! Worship that? NEVER!" -John Milton in 'Devil's Advocate'
in reply, jess, i'd say that i know. and yet...
"Secularity draws me to greater depths than even most agnostics dare to plunge, Lord. Am I being called to give up such opportunity? Or is my paradigm of a crossroad a completely erroneous one?" -excerpt from prayer journal
the song that plays as i write this is 'o come o come emmanuel' by enya. an immensely serene and tranquil piece that just... illuminates.
maybe it's like in the books of magic. you are offered the choice between two paths. so you decide to learn more about the path before making that decision. but unbeknownst to you, that in itself is the choice already. to know more, to learn more. in that, you already begin to walk the path. in that, you already make your choice.
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
"It's been a while but it's altogether familiar and bittersweet. While I know that from experience, this is only transient (to a large extent at least), I can't help but wonder... why am I being ravaged with such sweet desires, dreams and fantasies if I'm not meant to visualize them...Why then, do I have such visions if I'm not meant to realize them?" -excerpt from prayer journal.
"Let me give you a little inside information about God. God likes to watch. He's a prankster. Think about it. He gives man instincts. He gives you this extraordinary gift, and then what does He do, I swear for His own amusement, his own private, cosmic gag reel, He sets the rules in opposition. It's the goof of all time. Look but don't touch. Touch, but don't taste. Taste, don't swallow. Ahaha. And while you're jumpin' from one foot to the next, what is he doing? He's laughin' His sick, fuckin' ass off! He's a tight-ass! He's a SADIST! He's an absentee landlord! Worship that? NEVER!" -John Milton in 'Devil's Advocate'
in reply, jess, i'd say that i know. and yet...
"Secularity draws me to greater depths than even most agnostics dare to plunge, Lord. Am I being called to give up such opportunity? Or is my paradigm of a crossroad a completely erroneous one?" -excerpt from prayer journal
the song that plays as i write this is 'o come o come emmanuel' by enya. an immensely serene and tranquil piece that just... illuminates.
maybe it's like in the books of magic. you are offered the choice between two paths. so you decide to learn more about the path before making that decision. but unbeknownst to you, that in itself is the choice already. to know more, to learn more. in that, you already begin to walk the path. in that, you already make your choice.